CRUEL MISTRESS

(Please do not read this entry, it won't increase your imaan, or knowledge. )

Incredible, after much-hyped German total football, the match is draw now with Italy. The Italian team only has one world class player, while German team has several, allegedly.

And now, draw!!!

What a waste. I force myself to be up to watch the game, rather than sleeping, and abandon it due to the disappointed live stream online.

Football is a cruel mistress. I should just stick to F1, no harm will be done to my heart.

And to live with this unbearable hurt.

p/s: Loew takes Lahm and Muller out in the second half, what a price to pay. Eat your heart out, Loew.

ENOUGH SAID

Bismillah hir-Rahman nir-Rahim,

Assalamualaikum,

Allahumma Solli A'la Saiyidna Muhamad, Waa'la aa'li Saiyidna Muhamad.

1

A further 10 pages that need to be thoroughly checked, and then I'm done for the day. However, right now I couldn't even go through another page, the words cheekily sway right and forth, and dance hurriedly. And my heart beats so fast because...

2

I'm going to meet SV tomorrow. Besides respect, I have feared him, more that I could contain. Some are perplex with my behaviour, some are even amaze. Sometimes all the words stuck in my throat, refuse to depart to make things clearer. Even though he is the man that I've wrote about previously, the man with utmost kindness, it is still so scary to meet him. And tomorrow...

3

Is the friendly match between Germany and Italy. Enough said.

HAVE FAITH

Bismillah hir-Rahman nir-Rahim,

Assalamualaikum,

Allahumma Solli A'la Saiyidna Muhamad, Waa'la aa'li Saiyidna Muhamad.

I have lost a lot of things, tangible things, that break my heart for a long, long time.

1

I've lost my watch last year, which I have it for nearly 10 years. Yes, I am, was, that careful when it comes to that watch. Mainly it is because the watch is my Mum's present and it was really expensive. The first luxurious thing that I own. Strangely, I never really love that watch, except during its first few years. My mum always takes care of that watch whenever I am home, for example, she will put it in the cabinet, while if it was up to me, I am surely put it whenever it convenient for me. I think she loves that watch more than me.

One day, my naughty side appears out of no where. I call Mum and tell her that I've lost my watch. She is distraught, as predicted, and she asks me to call the watch (in Malay, seru). Yah, the shaman Mum! I am laughing silently and promise her that I'll find it. Then, whamp! I have lost it for real. Goodness me, now it is my turn to be hysterical.

After searching high and low for that watch, I still can't find it. Crestfallen, I know without a doubt that this is Allah's reprisal, and there is no other way except repentance. It was a year without any watch, as I have no desire to buy the replacement. Partly it's due to my inability to choose any watch, and another part is I feel that there is no need for a watch. Time isn't as priceless as before.

Then, a miracle happens, if you want to classify it as a miracle. I have found it in my jacket's pocket, and I nearly cry. You, you watch, have no heart at all. Teasing me for being absent for a long time, and suddenly appears with a huge grin. Owh I feel like flying over the dusk, and meet the golden sky.

2

I've lost my handphone, which absolutely drove me crazy. Yes, I couldn't live without my handphone, as it is the fastest device that connects me to the real world. Then, after I've accepting a reality, a calm feeling envelopes me. I don't really love that handphone, always tossing it onto my bed without a care. This is the second luxurious thing that I've bought, and I'm contemplating of buying another luxurious handphone that will last me for quite sometimes.

Then, it turns up on the night before I boarded to the UK, with the mischievous smile. I am relieved of course, I do not have to buy a new one, and the one that I really really want badly is the iphone, which serves no purpose for the traditional people like me.

But it was dead yesterday, with no visible diseases. No warning, no hint. I think it has a heart attack, after serving me for more than 5 years without fail. I tried to revive it, alas, to no avail. I am genuinely devastated. Still am. RIP, my dear, I'll conduct a funeral ceremony tomorrow.

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I've lost countless money due to various reasons which I do not care to write it here. But I'll never forget the first time my money was stolen, it was in the college. I always go home on the weekend, no matter how busy I am. I hate life in KL, still hate it, and Mum and Dad always ask me to be home anyway.

I still remember clearly, on the Friday morning, I have RM30 exact, for the bus fare and food. With the content heart, I left my purse in my beg to move to another class for presentation session. Little I know that it was the last time that I saw the money. When we were back, many of us have lost our money. It was a commotion, as we accused some guys to steal it, owh the guys are not from our class, it was a long story.

With no sign of confession from anybody, I accepted the fact that I couldn't go home on that weekend. The thought of not being able to go home hurt me so, so much more that losing the money. I called Mum, and cried. Owh I was a poor student at that time, and proud too.

You guys know what Mum told me? "Don't worry, Allah swt will replace it with Rm30,000, or even RM300,000, insyaAllah. Don't cry anymore, do you want me to put the money into your account?"

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Why do I write these things that I've lost? I have a deep conviction that, yes, Allah swt will always replace it with the better things, provided that we are patient with the trials.

Have faith.

EAT UNTIL YOU FEEL PRETTY

Bismillah hir-Rahman nir-Rahim,

Assalamualaikum,

Allahumma Solli A'la Saiyidna Muhamad, Waa'la aa'li Saiyidna Muhamad.

Moga-moga kamu berada didalam jalan-Nya. Meskipun pahit untuk tetap berada dijalan-Nya, saya doakan kita tetap sama-sama melangkah, biar terpaksa mengesot, atau merangkak, tetaplah kedua belah kakimu, sahabat. Biarkan magis doa-doa kita berterbangan di angkasa raya.

1

I love the below picture. A dream which doesn't seem unattainable. Replace it with New York, or Hyderabad, or Ningxia where the Yellow River flows through. Was it Li Bai who wrote a poem - can't you see the Yellow River gushing from the overwhelming sky, pouring to the ocean always, never to return? But once you have the golden opportunity to be there, just celebrate it. Not many people are fortunate enough to be chosen by Fate to be there.

2

Eat until you feel pretty. I laugh so much until my stomach aches when I come across this picture. Cute. Yes, I have an obsession with food. It holds a very special place in my heart. I believe that if Fate had a different plan for me, I'll be involved in the food industry, be the eater, the preparer, the judge, or simply the trader. Owh, and you are pretty. I always have an inkling that you are pretty, and when the fact manifests itself majestically, I am indeed speechless.

3

I love wuxia films. Since I was a child, my film diet always consists of wuxia films and dramas. Of course minus the cheesy and garmentless scenes, it is sickening. I owe many quality wuxia films, but I never like Jackie Chan, the poor actor who has been nominated for Best Actor in Hong Kong Film Award more than ten times, but never wins any. Fate is really funny. My latest favourite is 14 Blades. I never realise how talented and gentle-looking Donnie Yen is before. Or, perhaps, it is entirely due to the acting. Cautious, 14 Blades is not everyone's cup of tea though. Like I couldn't stomach the true-winner-box-office Avatar, the same goes for 14 Blades for some. And below is the quote that I like so much:

But, I still have hope for the future. My Mother used to tell me, it is fortunate to have hope. Every one has chosen their own paths. Qinglong, that goes for you too. As long as you keep on walking, you will see the blue sky.

It is fortunate to have hope.

ROSY ONES

Bismillah hir-Rahman nir-Rahim,

Assalamualaikum,

Allahumma Solli A'la Saiyidna Muhamad, Waa'la aa'li Saiyidna Muhamad.

رَبَّنَا لَا تُزِغْ قُلُوبَنَا بَعْدَ إِذْ هَدَيْتَنَا وَهَبْ لَنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَحْمَةً ۚ إِنَّكَ أَنتَ الْوَهَّابُ

1

I hate schools (readers, please do not cultivate this negative feeling, it is indeed wrong), but I love learning. To learn, I discover to my delight, is easier by talking, reading and observing, which all leading to contemplating. But attending a lecture could be totally different from attending school. I used to be a truant student before, well, I will be more than understanding if my students skip classes in the future. If I ever teach.

2

I've read many books penned by Jeffrey Archer, the most beloved one is Not a Penny More, Not a Penny Less. Genius, entertaining and truly wonderful. Lately I've been reading one of his collections of short stories, titled And Thereby Hangs a Tale. At first I couldn't comprehend his messages through the stories, is it skeptical? Or is it a praise for a humanity? I find it unsettling, but choose to ignore it nonetheless. This kind of stories used to drive me to the wall, feed my frenzy curiosity until I quench my thirst through googling it. But nowadays, I just suppress it, let it lingers longer in my mind. However, there is one particular tragic story that strikes a chord deep within my heart, because it is a true story. Caste-Off. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful.

3

The wind lady has stopped visiting us today. It feels strange, and the day has been somber again. But I'm off to Bowburn this late afternoon, insyaAllah. Scary name, isn't it? The only place where the rent is cheaper considerably in Durham, or perhaps in the entire UK.

4

The mega-protest in Egypt is getting worsen, with the ex-government-soon-to-be resorting to many sickening tactics to scare the civilians and the protesters, and justifying the future involvement of UN, World Bank and the USA (who else, then?). Mubarak's announcement to step down this September, promising the flourishing economy etc etc are a lie. Many people, I notice , always put their faiths on the politicians' words. Easily sway, aren't we? Let's be honest, shall we, the economic picture, especially the rosy ones, may not depict the real economy. Be wise.

5

I have a conviction on my methodology. Wow. I could never believe it that I am finally able to write that.

Must dash!

Love, always.

KANGEN

Bismillah hir-Rahman nir-Rahim,

Assalamualaikum,

Allahumma Solli A'la Saiyidna Muhamad, Waa'la aa'li Saiyidna Muhamad.

Sahabat-sahabat yang dikasihi, yang sentiasa dihati, yang sentiasa mempercayai keajaiban, yang mencintai kebenaran, yang mencari erti kehidupan sebenar.

1

Ramai yang menghukumkan apakah tindakan pemuda-pemuda, pemudi-pemudi, kanak-kanak dan orang tua di Egypt adalah jihad. Sesetengahnya hingga berani mengatakan bahawa kematian kerana demonstrasi untuk membebaskan negara dari pemimpin yang munafik dan penipu itu tidak akan dikira sebagai mati syahid, kerana niat untuk berdemonstrasi itu bukan kerana Allah swt.

Wah, sudah jadi judge ya?

2

The wind lady is howling outside, since yesterday. Her piercing cry scares me, it's like she's crying wildly because she isn't allowed to enter the room. Are you crying with her then? Yes, she is the epitome of grief and heartache, yes, she represents the blackest and the darkest of heart, but rather than viewing her as someone that is deserved to be hated, let's regard her as a someone that needs pity, compassion and above all, mercy.

She is unhappy for so many reasons, for so many years.

3

We will always face a hurdle. As promise by our Creator, Allah swt, He will test us with so many unthinkable, unimaginable tests, as in His words (a.k.a Al-Quran):

[3:186] Kamu sungguh-sungguh akan diuji terhadap hartamu dan dirimu. Dan (juga) kamu sungguh-sungguh akan mendengar dari orang-orang yang diberi kitab sebelum kamu dan dari orang-orang yang mempersekutukan Allah, gangguan yang banyak yang menyakitkan hati. Jika kamu bersabar dan bertakwa, maka sesungguhnya yang demikian itu termasuk urusan yang patut diutamakan.

But, as my friend points out, it is not the reason for misbehaviour. As simple as that. However, we are humans, and humans are deemed to make mistakes, over and over again. Let's repentance, shall we, and never ever believe that people think Allah is not The Most Merciful.

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Tiba-tiba, gue teringat sahabat-sahabat yang gue cintai itu. Ya, gue tahu ada antara kalian yang mengenali mereka ini. Hatinya selalu penuh dengan kasih sayang pada gue. Yang kadang-kadang gue ambil endah tak endah kerana sibuk sekali dengan urusan-urusan peribadi gue. Hatinya selalu penuh dengan sengsara, yang kadang-kadang gue buat tidak peduli atas penderitaannya, terlalu memikirkan penderitaan gue. Dan hatinya yang selalu lembut terhadap gue ini, kadang-kadang gue tuli dan buta untuk menilainya.

Tapi gue selalu sahaja kangen sama loe. Kangen mahu menangis lagi di bahu loe.

TOLONGI PELAJAR DI MESIR

update dari mesir untuk tatapan mereka yang berkenaan

petikan dari blog denaihati.com

Assalamualaikum dan salam 1Dunia, entri ini adalah khidmat masyarakat membantu Rakyat Malaysia di Mesir yang memerlukan bantuan segera Kerajaan Malaysia. Entri adalah sumber daripada entri khas yang dibuat oleh Ariffshah, yanmieonline dan Kak Jie (dengan kebenaran).

Petikan dari blog Kak Jie : Saya dapat message dari @DyyaDizarch salah seorang pelajar perubatan di Mesir yang sedang berusaha memohon bantuan dan perhatian Kerajaan Malaysia tentang situasi sebenar di Mesir. Mengikut blog krisismesirnasibrakyatkita.blogspot.com

ok.. yang kat comment tu update dari kawan pompuan.. wallat die kene curi.. hilang 1000.. dan die yang cakap airport kat Alexandria dah kene bakar…
ni update dari adik saya..

keadaan semakin teruk.. polis kat Alexandria sume dah tak ada.. dan memang tak ade rulez… post balai polis sume dah kene bakar.. n senjata sume orang awam dah curi..dan banduan sume dah kene lepas…

pagi tadi adik tetibe call.. suruh call balik.. emergency… die cakap internet sume dah down.. message pun tak boleh… n time tu battery die low… suruh die charge.. worse.. die cakap tak boleh charge sbb power tak ada… skarg xsure la ade ke xde…tp kalau xde.. it’s a big problem… sbb satu2 cara nak contact diorg ialah call.. kalau phone tak ada battery dan tak boleh charge or no kredit so dah tak boleh call..

dan gov egypt plan nak cut bekalan air.. tp sampai skarg boleh pakai lagi .. tak tau bile diorg nak cut..
so dia orang hidup dalam kegelapan…

then ATM semua tak boleh pakai .. kedai sume xleh ttp… n ni satu masalah.. ssh diorg nak balik.. airport terdekat kat Alexandria dah kene bakar.. thne tak ada duit sbb ATM sume down… n brg adik cakap harga sume melambung… of course bg sy at-salat mengambik lesempatan.. call 5 saan utk 4 5 genih tu sangat melampau… xsampai seminit pn.. n harga top up pn mahal skarg.. taxi even worst.. super mahal gle… makanan dh kurang.. n duit xleh kuar n harga melambung..

Petikan dari blog Ariffshah :

Salam Ariff, saya Nadia, a student in Egypt.

Ariff, kini saya berada di Malaysia kerana pulang untuk winter break, but when I gothome, the condition in Egypt somehow got worse about the Hosni Mubarak thingy. Ramai yang sangka keadaan kat sana adalah okay, mengikut kata Jabatan Penuntut Kaherah Mesir dan Kedutaan Malaysia di sana, but there are parts that they don’t know:

Di tempat saya Mansoura, people got killed on the streets, houses are getting robbed and they are aiming to attack Malaysian students. There are about 6000 prisoners on the streets! Pelajar kita di Alexandria dirogol, airport dibakar dan anggota polis tidak lagi menjalankan tugas mereka.

Kita memohon supaya kerajaan Malaysia memandang serius hal ini. Bukan sahaja di Mansoura, malah di seluruh Mesir keselamatan rakyat kita terancam.

Segala update berkenaan keadaan di sana boleh dibaca melalui blog Krisis Mesir, Nasib Pelajar Kita

Jika ada cadangan di luar sana untuk membantu kami mendapatkan perhatian kerajaan Malaysia, sila hubungi Nurul Nadia Binti Md Zin di 017-3193923

Atau melalui:
Facebook: Nuvul Nadiva Dizavch
Twitter: DyyaDizarch
Blog: Nadia-ism
YM: nadia_mdzin2001@yahoo.com

Please let all Malaysians know about this. I will do the same but I need your help too especially to all the bloggers out there. May Allah save our citizens there.

- Nadia

Sahabat baik aku mempunyai dua anak yang sedang menuntut di sebuah Madrasah Tahfiz di Mesir, semuga Allah beri perlindungan ke atas mereka dan seluruh rakyat Malaysia di Mesir.

Jadi apa yang perlu ANDA buat?

1. Kalau ada Twitter, retweet this. Click the retweet button. Lagi banyak, lagi bagus. It show’s that things are really serious there and we care.
2. Reblog this. Copy paste dan post dalam blog. Time ni memang aku galakkan sangat-sangat untuk korang copy paste.
3. Share this on Facebook.

diharapkan sedikit sumbangan kecil ini mampu menyelamatkan nyawa dan keselamatan rakyat malaysia kita.. amin.