HAIRAN

Bismillah hirRahman nirRahiim,

Assalamualaikum,

Kullu am wa antum bikhair.

Moga-moga kamu berada di dalam jalan-Nya. Meskipun pahit untuk tetap berada di jalan-Nya, saya doakan kita tetap sama-sama melangkah, biar mungkin terpaksa mengesot, atau merangkak, tetaplah kedua belah kakimu, sahabat. Biarkan magis doa-doa kita berterbangan di angkasa raya.

1

A friend wrote to me - hahha tu la saya heran camner awak tulis tanpa faham conceptual framework tapi memang ada conceptual framewrok and theorotical framework dalam paper awk.

At first I was puzzled and humbled, but I totally understand now what are meant by conceptual framework and literature review. But we also have an econometric modelling. However, I'm just a beginner. For thus who see that I'm a somebody in my area, please don't be. All is from Him, and Him alone should all the praises go to. And if you need any helps, in any areas, please feel free to ask.

2

After helping a friend in checking her thesis which is about designing a crime preventive measure in term of building physical environment (house design etc etc), I'm more than convinced that I love the crime topic more than anything. Such a comical life that I lead.

3

There was a political unrest in Tunisia, and it has been spreading to Egypt, Yemen and Gabon. Well-done, at last the young generations dare to stand up and fight for the right. I wonder, will this situation happen in Malaysia? Some bloggers write that instead of changing the government, why don't we improve the current government and governance? Heck, have they read 'SHIT' book by Prof. Shahnon Ahmad? The current generation has been anesthetized by many hedonistic programs, resulting in indifferent attitudes.

I realize, indeed it is true that we need a village to raise a child. Remember that Allah swt has prescribed the best way to teach people: By (the Token of ) Time (through the ages); Verily Man is in Loss, Except such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds, and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth, and of Patience and Constancy. (103)

4

It's Friday already! And I haven't finish doing things that I'm supposed to do. For the past few days, the weather decides to be somber grey, and it's raining almost everyday. The sun doesn't even show him pretty self, and somehow, it makes me sad beyond reasons. *sigh* The motivation to do something has been lost, owh Sun, you, you!

5

My 'roh' has paid several visits to many people today. Sometimes friends claim that I never remember them, as I never bother to keep in touch. What a harsh word. Well well well, let me tell you something, I do, I do remember you, with all my heart. Before, when I remember someone, I just remember. But now, I make a prayer - To Allah swt, The Most Merciful, The Most Gracious, please protect Mr./Miss/Madam X, guide him/her to your straight path, show him/her your mercy, shower him/her with your bountiful blessings, forgive her/him, and grant him/her paradise.

See? I do remember you. Dalam sujud-sujud dan doa rabitah ku. Dan kayak nya, gue ngga peduli kalau kamu ngga ingat sama gue, kerana gue mahu Tuhan Yang Maha Penyayang itu peduli sama gue. Dan ditakdir-Nya kamu ingat pada gue, alhamdulillah. Kalau tidak, ya, baik-baik sahaja. Tapinya, gue sangat berharap doa gue tentang kamu terus naik ke arasyi tanpa hijab. Because, just because.

ADAB CINTA

Bismillah hirRahman nirRahiim,

Assalamualaikum,

Kullu am wa antum bikhair.

Someone googles 'adab cinta bagi seorang perempuan yang hafal AlQuran', and s/he finds my blog. I'm honoured, even though my blog doesn't provide any tips for love. But I'm really curious, is there any adab/ rules (rules, or etiquette, maxim, or basis could never describe 'adab', perhaps because the word conveys a very deep meaning on the soft behaviour, I don't know) for such lady when she is in love?

There are rules for players, I know, but I never apply it, it's a game too dangerous to play, and it's not a game in the first place. But to dictate some 'adab' when you are in love, wow, that takes love to a higher level than its already great position.

Seni seviyorum.

'DUDUK'

Bismillah hirRahman nirRahiim,

Assalamualaikum,

Kullu am wa antum bikhair.

Nyaman-nyaman sahaja hari ini, cuaca nya bagus sekali, sudah 6 darjah Celsius. Kalau esok cuacanya masih begini, waduh, alhamdulillah.

Mahu blog mengenai lagu, boleh kah? Saya terbaca satu ayat yang menyamankan jiwa, doa itu lagu hati, entah saya curi dimana ngga bisa ingat lagi. Saya bukan peminat musik tegar. Kalau ditanya siapa penyanyi paling terkenal sekali, boleh saya bariskan seperti Lady Gaga, Justin Bieber dan Siti Nurhaliza kah? Sewaktu puluhan ribu rakyat manusia menonton AJL kelmarin, saya tidak ambil pusing lansung. Saya memang begini, punya satu penyakit paling jelek itu.

Tapi, bila saya menonton dan mendengar klip diatas, sewaktu 'duduk' didendangkan, dan violin dinarikan, saya tiba-tiba terasa dibawa ke satu alam indah yang tidak dapat saya gambarkan dan terjemahkan dalam kata-kata.

Iya, terasa macam lagu ulik mayang pun ada jua! Disini saya kagum dengan Yanni, dia memperkenalkan duduk, alat musik yang sudah berusia 3000 tahun, berasal dari Armenia. Kalau kita, alat musik apa yang masih kita pertahankan? Kordofon? Ah, saya pasti ada yang meng'google' alat ini. Benar, ada sahaja ulama' yang pasti mempertahankan pendapat yang mengatakan musik ini haram, ada sahaja yang kata harus. Terpulang, tepuk dada, tanya selera.

Adoi, really hard writing in good malay!

BREAK MY HEART

Bismillah hirRahman nirRahiim,

Assalamualaikum,

Kullu am wa antum bikhair.

In studying the impact of documented migrant workers, I have came across the issues related to the illegal workers. If I dig deeper, I will stumble upon the human trafficking issue, which just reading on its surface will break my heart.

Hear me, what compel a person to leave practically everything and starts a new life at foreign soils? The biggest push factors are unemployment and poverty while the biggest pull factors are the demand for low-paid services labour. But sometimes people believe that instead of selling a physical labour and service, it's better to sell a human. Read this: the total revenue from this illegal trade is between USD 5-9 billion annually.

I nearly vomit when I read the experiences told by the survivors of this most cruel trade: human trafficking. They are human, made from flesh and bloods, they are not a cute kitten or a beautiful flurry coat. Most of them are women and children (additional: of course there are males as well, come to think about it, it's seriously weird), yet the traders dare to touch these precious beings with their dirty hands. Most of them are being tricked and lured into this business, and many of them are kidnapped from their respective families.

I come from an affluent migrant family, therefore I am protected, alhamdulillah, from these kinds of lives. My families and relatives are involved in legal businesses, thus my experiences with the evil worlds are very limited, or perhaps to nonexistence. My knowledge come from books and films, as I am yet to encounter the depth of this evil trading. I always migrate, but as a knowledge-seeker, not as an income earner.

I always have this irrational desire to investigate this kind of issues. My original topic is Economics and Crime, focusing on the prison, but my sponsor wants me to examine the level and consequences of corruption in Malaysia, which I doubt I'll be alive after publishing my papers. My sister wants to study the human trafficking in Malaysia, which may bring her to neighbouring countries, alas her SV has opposed it as it's a dangerous topic for a lady. My other sister wants to specialize in the forensic and crime scene investigation, alas my Dad has prevented it. We may not have the police blood in our veins, but the sense of justice is still prevailing, and thus drive us to seek equity, fairness, integrity and freedom.

We are, if you may believe it, a justice fighter.

1-5

1

A somber, grey, sad sky, perfectly fits the picture of an evening winter. But there is a ray of sunshines, smiling prettily, waving good bye, wishing a good moonlight and a beautiful of starry night. You! As if you know how to heal the hurt. I'll see you tomorrow morning, Mr. Sunshine, insyaAllah.

2

A friend wrote that the pressure level of doing a research is at mega super super mega level. A friend told me that it's really annoying to see people at this stage. Yes, it will not only affect our moods, attitudes, behaviours, but also our lives. I'm not asking for the understanding, but I do not expect the sneers, jeers, and the illogical animosity. I'm still a human, and it should be the sole reason for any treatment that I receive.

3

At twilight, it's still the most beautiful painting I've came across. If I'm a painter, I will create a thousand pieces of arts reflecting its gorgeousness. If I'm the pianist, I'll play the songs worthy of its beauty. If I'm the singer, I'll sing the most wonderful song, celebrating its majesty. If I'm a writer, I'll write a million pages on its splendour and magnificence. Alas, I'm just a normal being.

Is there any words that could convey exact my feelings? Grateful. Yes, the word is grateful.

4

I'm going to study Sejarah next time. Writing in BM, see if my brains can cope it. Why do we have to write in English then? Is it because British and USA win the World War II? In Japan, for example, the language used during business transactions are Japanese. May be it has changed recently, but still, Japan is a member of G8. Comprehend that. May be I should start learning Japanese then.

5

I can't sleep, maybe I have drank so many coffee and tea. The amount of imported coffee and tea in Malaysia is at a staggering over RM6 billion in 2008 alone. We have Lipton, we have Boh, why do we have to import all of these kind of teas and coffees? This is called meeting various consumer demands. According to Miss Geologist, Britain imports tea and coffee from us (Southeast Asian countries), most of it, because they do not have tea and coffee plantations. Yah, and I buy Twinning teas, Harrods teas and Whittard teas and coffee. Owh Allahim.

TO DO

Taken from Huda

Taken from The Escapism

Taken from awohh I forgot again. Forgive me.

Salams,

Please pray for our safety and sanity here. We need it, owh we so need it.

MINUS FOUR

Salams,

Bismillah hir-Rahman nir-Rahiim,

1

I was out at 7.55am today, where the sun barely shows himself. The weather is extremely cold, it is minus 4 (-4 Celsius). I went to Bowburn to bid Ustaz Mazlee and Ustazah Hamidah goodbye. I feel like a hole in my heart, even though I'm not that close to them. They were among the families that asked my parents to have dinners, and for that, and many other reasons, I am greatly grateful. I wish all the best for their future undertakings, and I'm going to miss that little Mujadid.

2

Because it is so cold today, and I am out for quite sometimes, I feel close to fever. Yah, my room is really warm, and we don't expect that the temperature will fall so low. The sun is shining so brightly, yet the day is so cold. Deceitful. How could you smile so beautifully, yet so coldly? My face feels numb, my hands icy, and there are frosted leaves everywhere. Truly magnificent scenery, yet it's chilled to the bones.

3

My SV asks me, are you happy with your study? Why does he ask me out of sudden? Is he happy with my progress? Nervously, I answer that I'm totally happy. Yes, if my fellow friends read the following paragraphs, they will have their best laugh for today.

Why I'm happy?

I know the different between time series and panel data. I know the adf test, how to read the p-test, what's meant by significance. I know OLS, and their residual tests. I know robustness. I know VAR. To write these embarrassing simple things will embarrass me further, these are the kinds of first year economic students should know. But hell yeah, I know how to contexualization it with the literature review, theories and modelling in the present case. Even though it's really simple.

How could I'm not be happy? Rasa nak lompat-lompat macam kanak-kanak Ribena. Alhamdulillah.

4

As I've been sleeping for nearly half a day, let's study for at least half a day, shall we?